I’m up very early this morning. I’m sorry I didn’t get to wake you up properly for your 7am class. I guess we were both just too tired to even get up. Right now you’re still sleep and I envy you because your parents don’t ruin your day so early because they wake you up for college. I instead get woken up really early even if we’re not going somewhere.

Mom says it’s her way of teaching me a lesson.

But somehow I’m never getting it because it always wakes up to the same thing. It’s okay. 

I’m going to go down and have breakfast now. You won’t budge. Haha. Come on bu. Wake up now. I want to be able to wake you up and prepare for your next class at least. Please wake up.

I have to annoy you. Sorry. :D

It’s the least I could do to wake up your senses. I love you!

Love,

Bab

This morning I went to your Twitter page and I backreaded till the very day that I said I won’t to talk to you for a week. Well, I found myself broken hearted. Yeah. My fault. If only I hadn’t let myself go that far on backreading but then the intention was just really out of curiosity.

But it’s okay. It’s done. There’s nothing I can do about it anymore. What matters most is that we’re okay now. And seemingly better than usual. At least I’m more sure that your heart is for me to take care of for rest of your days.

Nobody said love isn’t gonna hurt. And therefore I still do love you. And it’s okay. Even if it hurts sometimes.

Love,

Me

Dear You,

I always imagine us sleeping together like this. I would absolutely love and miss the way your arm would feel so warm around my body; making me feel protected and secured until morning, which means for always. <3

Love,

Me

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Dear You,

I want this right this second. I want my lips against yours closing in together with your lips forming a kiss that can do away all the stress and pressure that I feel right now. 

Love,

Me

Namiss kong magsulat ng kawagasan sa blog na to. Palibhasa kasi mas nabubuksan ko yung main blog ko kasi default na yun sa browser. Kapapalit ko nga lang ulit ng password eh para mabuksan to.

Eto nnaman ako sa pagkamiss ng kawagsan ko sa pagiging sweet ko sa mga letters ko sayo at sympre yung pagkasweet mo sa mga letters mo din sakin. Siguro di na tayo nagsusulat masyado ng mga ganun kasi dahil narin sa mga away bati natin na puro yun nalang inatupag natin. haha. At pati narn yung expectation at disappointments sa  both sides natin.

Maybe this just means we’re growing older and wiser so that we know what to do next time but at the same time we’ still get to love each other.

We’re both human. We make mistakes. But still… we love each other. Let’s bring back these childish sparks of ours during the day. 

Love,

Bab

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<3

If you fail, then try again.

If you don’t want to fail, how are you ever going to succeed? 

Failures are lessons. Lessons to help you succeed. So…

Try again. :)

Baby, I want you near me so badly. I know I shouldn’t rush you, I know I shouldn’t pressure you. I don’t want to lose you.

But I do hope you understand how much it would mean to me (and of course to you) if you really gathered up courage and came here to see me like a man.

I am not judging you. I’m just telling you what I need. You need me. But I need you too. I do hope you realize soon enough that it’s you that I need. 

I know we shouldn’t really rush things. But maybe you’re just too afraid to take the risk. I’m not going to reject you, you idiot. What do you think I take you for? 

Have you noticed I’ve been going out so much? I’ve been going out with people who are close to me, some are close to you too. But no matter how many times I go out with them, it’s never enough. It never actually fills my heart with joy and gladness.

I don’t know. I’m feeling lonelier everyday. I now feel like I’d die into nothing but a memory of regret and pain. But of course I don’t want it to turn that way because I know we’re set for greater things in life.

But yes. I do feel lonely. Especially these days that you don’t really get to talk to me often because you’re still admitted in the hospital. I’ve lost hope of trying to find you because you don’t want to be looked for. You don’t want me to find you. 

I just wish even for once in your life you’d feel like you’re fulfilling your duties as a man that loves me with all his heart.

I know you can, bu. You’re just not pushing yourself further enough.

Don’t be scared, I tell you. You don’t have to be. I’ll face these troubles with you, no matter what they are.

You know why I’ve been so tempted enough to get up and leave? Because I want to make you see that you’re not the one whose needing so much too. But I’m sorry if these hasty immature decisions broke your heart. I don’t want to reach those points anymore. I won’t let it. I promise.

As of now, I’ve been thinking if I’m really the one for you. Most of the time you don’t show it to me because you’re not that kind of person at all. But you’ve left me tangible evidences that you are in love with me. And all those experiences we’ve been through, they mean a lot because you know you’ve persevered a lot.

You’re on your first several steps on growing up bu. I’m proud of you always. I don’t know if you’ll be able to sense that you need to read my old private blog. But if you will be able to,

Remember this: 

I love you for anything that you are and I think you’re a wonderful person. Don’t be scared of the outcome, be scared that you never gave it a chance.

Take your chances.

Work mode.

Hello private blog.

Dear You,

God knows we’ve been a lot of tough times but look at how we are now. We’ve grown out of the immaturity somehow and realized how much we need each other.

Baby, you know you mean so much to me. The happy times always come out and embrace us in the end of every trial. 

I love you for staying when I was at my weakest. I don’t know what I’d do if you left me that time even if I knew anything could happen. When things like “letting go because i’ve hurt you so much” come into my mind, I cry when I was on that hospital bed. But all I could do was hold on to your hand (visualizing that you’re there) knowing you were waiting for me to be okay because you told me so.

You’re the only want I want because

• you make me smile and laugh
• you comfort me when I’m sad
• you support me
• you love me for everything that I am even when I’m annoying
• you respect me for me
• you’ll protect me
• you’d call randomly just to hear my voice
• you’d wake me up so damn early in the morning just to tell me you love me <3
• you think I’m the most beautiful girl in your eyes
• you tell me stories
• you’d kiss me and kiss me and kiss me and… lol :)
• you know how to swallow your pride
• you try to be patient for me
• you annoy me in such an adorable way, as if you were a kid
• you sing me songs
• your write me letters
• you take care of yourself for me
• you take care of me
• You love me

I love you so much. Each day always feels like Nov. 10, 2010 if you noticed. And I just can’t help but smile when I realize we’re after so many months, everyday feels like only yesterday that we started liking each other. We’re so cute. :) 

I can’t wait to kiss you on the head and hug you with the hug that tells you “we can do this together,” bake you pastries, sleep with you, make love with you, and just do everything together.

I will marry you one day soon.

We’ll grow old together in a house of our own taking care of our kids. Teaching Zurg how to be a good “kuya”. 

Sigh. :”>

My life has changed ever since I met you, bu.

I won’t let anyone take you away from me. I will take care of you and do my best not to give any reason to leave.

I LOVE YOU

Love,

Kems